Hair ; An Epiphany

A Musical. Things that grow from our head. The second one more importantly. My hair is bad news. I cut it short. The biggest mistake ever! Ugh. Im so dumb sometimes. Im starting school in 3 weeks and im pissed off. Im moving from home, how am i going to do my hair? Wear a scarf and look like aunt jemima? Nooooo. I cant flat iron it that well. I suck at braiding my own hair. Should i get dreads? Ive been thinking about it and what would look good on my head and my glasses. Ive been wanting to wear it naturally. My hair used to be long until i burnt it with lye. Now im left with a kinda afroish/straightish/poofish short round thing on top of my head ! im too ashamed to post pictures but if you want to see email me or message me. i have been purchasing loads of mags to get styles from. Most of them are weaves/texturizers/perms. I think i have come to a final conclusion. I hate my hair. I do . It isnt the greatest thing to think about. But i realize i do hate it. Why? Its not long and flowing and straight like everyone elses who is called pretty. Yah. Yah! i know! Woe as me, boo hoo. Seriously, though. My hair is turning agianst me as i have turned agianst it. Or is it only me. I can not accept it for what it is ... i want definition even if i have curly..i want it silky and shiny. Or am i asking for the heavens to scoop my hair up throw it away, and replace it with a permanent wig? I cut off all my hair once when i was 10 and my mother spanked me. I was cutting my hair for fun. I think after that moment i realised hair was so much more than dead peices of string. It was who i was, what people juged me by. My attractiveness. Would my boyfriend still have dated me if i was bald? would my friends still talk to me? Would anyone call my pretty? Why should i care? Im and cool chick, regardless of weither my hair is there or not. Or am i??


This is honestly what i look like.



Well maybe not...